The fading moon..

There is a strange anxiety in my heart,that i can’t explain.I began to learn that i am slowly drifting apart from some people. But somehow i am thankful i have been released from that cage,the unnecessary show off.I don’t know my heart is feeling that i am allowing to let that happen.I heard people judging bonds over time.But can’t the shortest friendships live forever.A friend is not someone who likes to make you feel inferior,someone just to have good times with,someone to joke with.You can’t make up to your heart,a ‘friend’ is someone whom i can talk about my happiness,excitement, the hundred nothings,and an arm to let your grief be free.It always appears to me i have opened myself to the wrong people,who never embraced me.But there are also friends whom i should keep,but ignorant i was,i let them go.Years after,I know childhood friends are forever.Thank you Sneha for being my best friend,I lost contact with her,But i will always love you Mrs. kohli.For Dolon,You have a wild spirit,Thank you for coming into my life.Miss you.

My college friends,Debadrita and Ansuka,after a pretty long time i found someone who doesn’t judge on the basis of my grades.I am not aware of the place i occupy in your hearts nor whether i am sure after 10 years we will be roaming through quest mall on a Thrusday noontime eating belgium chocolates ,talking about everything and nothing.I am not scared,i learned to appreciate what i have now,but also to release my hand to the one who wants to walk away.

This is the one kind of releationships we don’t have to force,which i am thankful of.Friendship is a precious gem,it should not be associated with greed,jealousy,gossip.I have a problem with the word ‘Forever’,when we say ‘I love you forever’,We are lying,cause we,human beings woke up every morning changed,situations,hardships,failure pushes us to change.Distance stabs a cruel knife on friendship,how technologically advanced we grew up to be,Mobile screen cannot be an alternative for warm hugs.Things change,when we bid farewell to the dirty fields,Looming Classroom,Caring teachers,we also leave their our one self which is eternally faded.Maybe i have grown up,but i am not ignorant,it’s just when people grow,sometime they grow out of themselves.

It is very hard to reciprocate the thing which we gonna hold onto till death do us apart.Maybe we forgot each other in the sea of crowds that is rushing towards us,New sun is waiting for us in the shore,we have to go.

I would never going to forgot the memories,singing our heart out in the last bench,sharing tiffin,Horror stories on a gloomy rainy days,Dancing on the teacher’s day,Feast in Saraswati puja(and also flaunting our sarees in ‘Valentines day’).I will always remember i made a hell of a memory with you guys.We can’t put a barrier.

So to the fading moon,Even if you are fading into the dark tunnel Which i cannot put my feet on It,You have gained a place in my heart which can never destory.

To the old,thanks for showering endless affection upon me,and to the new and to the future….

Thank you for letting me a part of your journey.

20 Comments Add yours

  1. Mehul Singla says:

    You are lucky to get good friends in your life. Good friends are like gem. Everyone isn’t lucky to have these gems..

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    1. neha98blog says:

      Thank you Mehul.

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      1. Mehul Singla says:

        I nominated you for 2 awards. Do check them out😊

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      2. neha98blog says:

        Ofcousre, I will do.

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      3. Mehul Singla says:

        😊😊

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  2. Waooo sayanii.. this is so true … it really touched me.. ❀😒

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    1. neha98blog says:

      Thank you ansu..love you Mrs.jungkook.

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  3. Lost soul says:

    Aww that’s such emotional write up. True we usually make wrong decisions about the people opening up to. Then again some people are there for us always. Some friendships are forever. I too have my gem. And I found so many new friends here on WordPress. Sometimes friendship is not counted on the days of years, it happens with the smallest spark or connection. ☺️

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    1. neha98blog says:

      And i think i found that gem right now.you seem like a geniune person and it would be a honour to read your writing and support you,and watch you grow as a writer.
      Best wishes
      Neha.

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      1. Lost soul says:

        And that made my heart melt. It’s my honour to read such a wonderful writer that you are. And it would be great to show you my work. And I hope to prove myself a gem to you. Thank you so much. Much love ❀️

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  4. Emotions running high πŸ˜ŠπŸ‘πŸ‘

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  5. piuli97 says:

    Too good re… Really so emotional..😍😍

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    1. neha98blog says:

      Thanks debo so much

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  6. D says:

    I lost a gem this year, a very important one but I have other gems that are still equally important to me.

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    1. D says:

      Wanted to write more but I accidentally pressed send. You are lucky to have good friends close to you. It is better few and good than more and fake. I wish you all the best ☺!

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      1. neha98blog says:

        Hello dear, i hope you forgive me for such a late reply. First of all, thank you for such generous remarks, I will visit your blog soon read some notable works of yours.

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      2. D says:

        It was my pleasure! 😊 Don’t worry! πŸ˜€

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  7. Graci says:

    Heartfelt.. So true, nothing is really permanent, everything is subject to change. We can only treasure the good memories and create new ones.

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    1. neha98blog says:

      Just the short summary what I really wanted to say.your comments are truly very intrisic and precisely made.

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