If I could see you now..

I try to be as humble and as kind i can.But i cannot deny that fact that words also hits me,I didn’t enjoy staying alone but I have no choices left behind me.I do not show my pain infront of others that doesn’t mean my nights are not full of tears.I miss you maa,I am not strong maa.I wish you could hear me maa,They say you are always with me,I am craving for your hug.There are few people who can understand why I am so soft,Who doesn’t blame me for being so emotional.Tonight is one of the nights I miss you so much,beyond any explanation.Why people hurt us maa?Why can’t people see mee through your eyes Maa.They judge me,Sympathise me ,Praise me for being so strong.But no one offer their warm embrace maa,You know naa I cannot shout at anyone or hurt them.They hurt me instead.I am very lonely with out you maa.If i could see you maa for one tiny moment,I would hold you close to my heart and never let you go,never.My heart is so heavy and I hope I can make you proud one day maa,I wanna help people maa,who are in pain and suffering.I would  love people like you loved all besides their imperfection and mistakes,I hope maa you can see your daughter being a tiny bit of you one day and Smile upon me from the infinite stars.I wish I could hug you right now,and tell you all things,And all these 4 years how I missed you on all my happiness and all my never forgetting sleepless nights.I am writing this in a hope that somewhere you still can see me Maa,can listen to me.

Miss you 

Always.

22 Comments Add yours

  1. *hugs* I am sure your mom was proud of you and would be today if she could see what a wonderful woman you’re becoming. *hugs*

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    1. neha98blog says:

      I can only say thanks,which is very less compared to how you are supporting me.Miles away,But you are always closest to my heart.

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  2. You are a wonderful human being, Neha, and I’m sure your maa would be proud of you wherever she is… Stay calm and stay blessed. ❤ ❤

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    1. neha98blog says:

      Thanks Maniparna di for sending your love & support through words.

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      1. Bhaalo thakish (tui bollam) mon kharap korishna… ❤

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  3. That was beautiful. X

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    1. neha98blog says:

      Thanks Rubi,have a good day

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  4. Neal says:

    Hey champ, Today sucks, I know. It’s going to be hard. But so is every other day since you have lost your mother. There is absolutely no love in this world like the love of a mother. There is a void that cannot and will not ever be filled, no matter what anybody tells you. Remember this, as the warmth of the sun shines on your face please remember the warmth in your mother’s heart through all of the days she had on this earth. She didn’t want to ever leave you and she still hasn’t left you. Your mother was greater than this world. I know sometimes life just doesn’t seem fair and it never will but please, please, don’t cry today, for your mother would want nothing more than to see you smile. I feel the pain within your heart as another day passes by without her. She doesn’t want you to be sad. She wants you to honor her life in the best way possible, and that way is to live it. Live it for you. Live it for her. I know it is sometimes easier said than done and sometimes words just don’t help. The best way to heal is to remember. Remember her. Remember the sorrow, remember the love, remember everything. Talk to her, she’s always listening. And simply cherish the time you did have with her and the memories you have made. Rib cracking hugs 🤗 ❤️ Stay strong 🙂

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    1. neha98blog says:

      words do heal..and I am spellbound.Thanks for giving me courage.

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  5. You don’t hurt people even if they hurt you, because you’re so innocent and your heart is so pure that such things never comes in your heart..
    I like these lines from a song,
    “You don’t have to be superman, You don’t have to hold world in your hand”.
    It’s okay to not to be strong, you can cry, fall.. Just remember that, You’re so special to yourself, doesn’t matter whether you’re strong or not..

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  6. You don’t hurt people even if they hurt you, because you’re so innocent and your heart is so pure that such things never comes in your mind..
    I like these lines from a song,
    “You don’t have to be superman, You don’t have to hold world in your hand”.
    It’s okay to not to be strong, you can cry, fall.. Just remember that you’re very special to yourself, doesn’t matter whether you’re strong or not..

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    1. neha98blog says:

      This line trully touched my heart,Thanks for everything!!

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      1. You’re always welcome…😊😊

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  7. balroop2013 says:

    So emotional and poignant! Words can be so powerful…only if we use them to convey how much of love lies within us! I am sure your mom’s soul is resting in peace. Detachment is so hard…I know but life is like that and we learn slowly as it flows. 🙂

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    1. neha98blog says:

      Thanks for your love.

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  8. Dear Friend,
    I nominated you for below Award ” Blogger Recognition Award”
    Kindly check and follow the rules of re-posting this award.
    Keep it up, sky is the limit.

    https://lifewithtranquility.wordpress.com/2017/01/13/blogger-recognition-award/

    Tahir

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    1. neha98blog says:

      Thanks Tahir for this Honor,trully appreciate that.

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  9. Simply-Me says:

    Neha this was emotional piece and heartfelt. I hope you’re okay, writing especially when hurting helps, it’s like a therapy.

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  10. Alok Singhal says:

    You don’t have to feel alone, Neha. I am sure many of us are always with you, if not all!

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    1. Alok Singhal says:

      Moreover, your mama is always around (just that you don’t see her).

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  11. She still can hear you Sayani, she is and always will be around you, protecting you and being happy with you…
    Take care xoxox

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